Today I sit and ponder my exsistance - not whether I live or die because that is ... I ponder why. What have I to offer anymore. Children are grown and married and somwhat adjusted to life and death. I am not being morbid, I just really do not know why I am here.
After a very long vacation - that I really enjoyed, I am back home. Home is where the heart is right? Well, what if where your heart is you cannot be? Then home becomes a house, and everything around you dulls to the point of numbness.
I do not want to plod along waiting anymore- wish God or someone would tell me what to do next.